21 Weeks Pregnant-Fitness, Nutrition,Fear, And Worries

I feel like it was just yesterday when I said “I cant Believe Im Half Way Already”

Im not sure where that week went, but Im getting close to 22 Weeks! I turned that Rough Pregnancy  Corner, And Im expecting the other half of my pregnancy to fly by!

Picture below, I’ll just blame the Pregnancy Brain, Im not sure why I have “pregnant” On there twice, saved it, posted it on instagram, then I finally realized it lol. I really didn’t feel like fixing it. My excuse is, there is two pictures, so I put Pregnant twice =) That works right?


My 21 Weeks Pregnant Symptoms



-Still Hungry now as I’m Typing

-Pretty good Energy, considering, Im pregnant right?!

-Pretty emotional crazy, happy to sad in seconds, sad to happy again


-Currently on a split schedule

Day 1- Chest and Triceps

Day 2- Back and Biceps

Day 3-Shoulders and Legs

Day 4- Rest Day

Day 5-Start Over, back to Chest and Triceps

*Machines, Dumbbells, Resistance Bands


To be honest, I feel like I am always eating! However, Im very, very picky Right now!

Protein: Chicken/ Yogurt/ Protein Shake/Eggs…

Carbs: Lots of Veggies/ Oats/Wheat Bread/Red Potatoes

Fats: Peanuts/Peanut Butter/ Olive oil/ Some butter/Some Mayo

Fruits: watermelon, cantaloupe/ grapes/ cherries/bananas

Snacks: Limited cheese sticks/fruit snacks/ nuts/granola bar/Rice cracker/fruit

Emotional meals: Pizza plus Pizza, with a side Pizza

I have a lot of Salad wraps, Every morning I make Pancakes with Oats! In General I am a pretty picky eater, but this pregnancy, it’s kind of ridiculous! By the evening, I run out of things I want to eat!

Fear And Worries

Im at the point of pregnancy where  I am  constantly Planning, Worrying, and thinking about things that scare me…. Like Labor!

I had a fairly easy labor last pregnancy. Until it came to pushing. My doctor did recommend me to get an Epidural, And I did!

My Birth Story: First, as the Nurse was trying to put an IV in my hand, she said ” OoOo we like you, you have nice veins” as she then started having trouble getting the needle in.  She keep poking and poking, my vein then started to get irritated and I had a little mountain on my hand! I got white in the face, light headed, dizzy, cold chills, sweating, and almost passed out. Let me add this has also happened getting blood taken my current pregnancy as well! Continuing on, later in the day, the nurse came and checked to see how much I was dilated! Maybe 10  Minutes later, I felt like I had to go Number 2. We told the nurse and she got me a BED PAN…Oh Jeeze! So they turned down my epidural medicine so I can just go ahead and  POOP lol…. however… It was the baby, I kind of felt like, hey maybe the nurse should be familiar with this, and that it actually wasn’t a bowel movement, it was my SON, but she said I dilated very fast within those minutes! Wow Anyways, she gets the doctor, tell me not to push. Im like really, lady , there is no stopping  this! Looking at my Son father, Matt, saying, you better go catch my Baby! lol Finally, which seemed like forever, my doctor came in,  and I started pushing! I realized my epidural had definitely wore off by then. I felt a lot of pain in the butt area, and a lot of pressure!! My baby boy was born, 8 lbs 3 ounces.

I have a pretty big fear this time,  I feel like I have changed a lot
within the last almost 5 years!  When it comes to certain things, I have become very weak stomached, and my mind over thinks everything. Which then leads to me with the dreaded light headed, dizzy, tunnel vision, feeling chills, but hot and sweaty and almost passing out.  In all honesty, I do not want an epidural again, I don’t believe I felt the full feeling of labor, but I felt a lot!

However, When I told my Doctor about recent stories about me almost passing out and almost passing out with certain  things. She seemed pretty concerned. So right now, my goal is to STOP thinking about labor, lol… not easy!! I like to have everything PLANNED, so not having a exact plan when going into labor stresses me out! Playing labor by ear , seems scary, but  unfortunately I can’t see into the future! Ill take it step by step and see how I am doing! The weird thing Is, Im not bad with pain at all. It’s my mind thinking and thinking that gets me sick! They say your mind is a strong thing! I believe it !

More Fears…

-I am due in October, it is the middle of June. Our closing on our new home isn’t until the end of July! I am a huge planner. Cutting time so short is making me permanently stressed all day ! We have a fence to put up before we can move in without our dogs. I have  the kids rooms to decorate,  Carpet to take out, and floors to be redone. I just a a list a mile long.

-Very very worried about how my Son will feel come October. He will be turning 5 the week she comes. I know that he will be a great big brother, But I worry daily about how we will feel once he’s not the only child in the home! Currently h
ave a TO DO LIST with a Toddler  before Baby comes!! Im sure Im not the only Momma waiting on baby number 2 that worries about this one!

Overall. Besides NORMAL life Fears of the Future. Life and Pregnancy is Pretty good!  I feel very blessed. I say my thanks  and sorrys  for complains every night! As much as we have to do, the fears and worries that I have, everything is happening in ways Im completely thankful for! I feel my family and I are in the exact spot in life we are meant to be in!

” Everything happens for a reason”




Baby Girl, Mommas Has Fears, but oh so excited!! 

I am still completely shocked that I have a little baby girl growing and kicking inside me. I already have a son, and I knew it in my heart that my first baby would be a boy. 
This pregnancy , I knew in my heart it was a girl, but I was confusing it with how badly I wanted and needed a girl! 

My dad kept saying , if your like your mom, you will have two boys before a girl. Imagining the future of my family, I couldn’t picture another little boy… At least not yet… Maybe baby number 3. 

My mom passed away when I was 16 and until I found out I was pregnant with my son, I was turning into a person I didn’t like dying down a path that would bring me nothing. Luckily , having my son saved me. I knew baby 1 wasn’t meant to be a girl. I was still young and haven’t grown into the woman I am now to be ready to take on a daughter. Now being 25, I know my heart needed this so be a baby girl. Since I lost my mom, I’ve been searching for the female connection, to not exactly replace my mom, I can never replace my mom, but to fill that hole, and unfortunately I never found it. So to have a daughter of my own is exactly what I need right now in life to repair my pain and hurt left of the my past. ❤ 

Now to the fear part, it’s a silly fear when I think of it, however it’s still a fear. 

Growing up, I’ve always been a tomboy, I had 2 brothers, my main focus was always hanging with the boys over the neighborhood girls.   

There’s only a hand full of women I get a long with now. I’ve never been one for gossip and drama. It’s never easy for me to connect with women, so I keep to myself and then that comes off like I’m stuck up and bitchy. Which anyone who knows me, yeah I’m on the tougher, strong minded side, but I’m overly weird and goofy. Overall, I wouldn’t say I’m afraid we won’t connect, but I would say I’m not use to the female connection.

  Losing my mom and then our family falling apart so fast , I lost who I was for a while and it’s taken a while to gain myself all back. Even knowing all the progress I made on who I am and who I want to be , I’m just worried, I want make sure I’m the strongest women I can be because it’s what my daughter will need and what I want my daughter to look up to be. 

In reality here, I’m thinking way to far into the future , but hey that’s what I do ❤ Mom life right?!?!

Every mom worries, why wouldn’t my goal to be the strongest women I can be for my daughter! 

So I’ll continue to work on myself like the past few year better myself each day =]

Miss Eva Rey,you have no idea how excited your Momma, Daddy and Big brother are to have you come into this world and join our Family !! 


“Oh Mr. Potato Head,Do You Swear You’ll Stay Forever…

Even if her Face don’t stay together?


” It’s Such A Waste, When Little Girls  Grow Into Their Mother’s Face, But Little Girls Are Learning How To Cut And Paste, And Pucker Up Their Lips Until They Suffocate”

Anyone who knows me, Knows I’ve been Completely obsessed with Melanie Martinez Since I saw her on the Voice!   The Meaning and stories in her songs are Very relatable  to me, even if I relate to them a couple different ways  for one song!

Her Music gave me a whole new outlook on things.  Like…

-Be true to yourself… you are who you are. Don’t be Ashamed, don’t try to hid it. Your past is and always will be apart of me.  I’ve been called Crazy, Strange, the odd ball etc, Multiple times. As I got older, I just embrace it now. I suppose being 18/19 I wanted to be “cool”  and be like everyone else. Now it just seems Silly how I was  Listening to Music  that had no meaning to me.

I saw this ^^^ On Instagram, which is why I decided to write this post. I 100% Agree.  “You Are The Music You Listen To, Choose Wisely What You Feed Your Mind”      Hey Everyone might not agree, but Personally for me, I feel music gives me a different mind set!!   Not Saying I won’t listen to other songs that I don’t completely relate to, But the other day I heard a old song I use to listen to.  Ja Rule ” I got a hundred guns , a Hundred Clips, I’m From New York ”      Ehhh… Yeah, I really don’t have 100 guns/100 clips, and I’m not from New York.  hahah =)

Any ways…. Back on Subject here lol…. Kind of =)

If you have the time,  Ladies, Moms with Daughters,  listen to this song. Even if it’s not your kind of  music, the words and meaning to it is Perfect, Especially with how Society, Magazines and the Media is Today. It’s one of my favorites….
>>>Melanie Martinez- Mrs. Potato Head

Basically a song about changing yourself. Will others like you more, will you be loved, Will YOU like yourself more.  Society likes to show one kind of Beauty, and girls feel like, if that’s not them, then they aren’t Beautiful and they aren’t attractive. So Will surgery fix all your problems?  ” Oh Mrs. Potato Head tell me, is it true that pain is beauty, does a new face come with warranty, will a pretty face make it better”

Want to lose weight, “Potatoes turn to French Fries, Yeah its common sense”

Just take a listen… =)  Maybe you’ll become a Fan!!

I remember when I was Young I Use to Always Get Made fun of Because I Had Big Lips! I would Come home and cry to my mom. As a child I was also so ashamed of my pouty looking lips. And to add to it, I have a Overbite that makes them look even more pouty and full! Which now is BitterSweet, because now a days, you cant tell if they are my real lips, or I just went to a Doctor and did whatever they do there to them. I don’t even know lol

However, I actually had someone ask me if my lips were my lips a few time. Certainly I was pretty pissed. 

So I wrote it down >>>

Kylie Jenner Wanna Be 

No Darling , I was born with these.

Mom why are these girls so mean to me? 

Baby, girls are full of jealousy.

Remember when you use to make fun of me.

Now your trying every remedy.

 Siting in your room 

Kissing vacuum tubes 

Constructing the New You.    
To be continued ❤





Women And Body Bashing- Women Bringing Women Down. 

This post is from my old blog, but it’s one of my favorites! I’ve never been the one to deal with drama, gossiping or being that mean girl who put other women down. I’ve always been that tom boy, playing sports with the boys and only have a few girlfriends that I connected with!! 
Now I’m 13 weeks pregnant, I still lift weights, however, I don’t have much lower abs any more, just the upper abdominal definition. 


Pregnant, not pregnant, women who work out , or women who don’t. Most Women all deal with the same thing….
Body Bashing and Negativity

From Men and Women!

What I don’t understand is women who bring other women down instead of empowering one a another! 

There are so many different body types out there. Curvy women, slimmer smaller ladies, ladies who  have a hard time gaining  weight, others who have a hard time losing it, and girls who  are into weightlifting that have muscles and abs.
No Matter what the type, there seems to ALWAYS be some negative comment from 1 type to the other.

“ewww  why would she want abs like that, she looks like a 12 year old boy”

“muscles make you look manly”

“Id rather have these curves then your unhealthy curves’

” how can you say you workout when your still fat”

“she so skinny its gross”

Just a few comments I’ve seen around social media from 1 woman to another.

I can tell you 1 thing that almost all women, if not all, have in common! We have insecurities, there is at least 1 thing that we are insecure about and want to change. Maybe it something like  your nose that’s not going to change with out surgery, or maybe its your weight and you are unsure on  what steps to take, or where to even start. What I DO NOT understand is why?? Why body bashing , why the hurtful comments, The media, magazines, PHOTOSHOP  already make young girls and women feel insecure, whats the point in body shamming someone else when you more then likely  feel insecure about something yourself.

One thing I have learned is, the victims in body shaming ARE NOT  only women who may be over weight, being called fat, I’ve had my share of negative comments because I do workout and I do lift weights, What do I do? I continue working out, I continue worrying about myself and my goals, because no one in life will  get YOU to where YOU Want to be. NOT everyone will see the beauty in things you do, and that’s okay, they don’t have to! As long as you love yourself and follow YOUR PATH, your in the right direction. These Negative people are going to be negative to many other things and  other people, So there is really nothing we can do, however we can Be the change, lend a helping hand when a Bully tries to bring someone down! Don’t be afraid to encourage another women. 
Bullies: Bullies  come in all shapes and sizes, bullies can be 13 or 35.  They say some bullies want to make other people feel lower and weak because that’s how the bully feels themselves.

Women should be positive towards one a another, show support and  empower each other.

Life is short, and being a bully, being negative, and saying rude things to hurt other people get you absolutely no where, and definitely wont make YOU feel better about your self!!

For any women reading this,and a couple friends that told me their battles with bullies,  You are good enough, everyone is beautiful!!